Hayley
claire1984
Migraines/Headaches

Please go away and let me get on with my work.

You are stopping my life at the moment. Even when it is dark, the light still blinds me. Even when it is quiet, the noise still deafens me. The nausea overcomes me.

Please. Go Away. Thats all I ask.

An Amazing Feat
Hayley
claire1984
I just cooked Roast Dinner for six people. And everybody liked it, and nothing went wrong.

I am now very tired, as have not had chance to sit down all day. Therefore, I am allowing myself a glass of wine whilst watching Batman Begins with Steven, James, Simon, and Sam.

This made me giggle
Hayley
claire1984
Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!



My friend and i recently decided that we both want to do things the traditional way - get married etc, have kids, but we also both want the career.

We decided that she could get married and i'd have the career! Do i take this as something telling me Im going to fail in my career?

Hayley
claire1984
I do not have time to do anything anymore! I am ill today, so have taken the time off work to make a headstart on my essay. Im about halfway through. Not sure when I am going to get a chance to complete the rest but have a lot of work to do for various seminars for the rest of the day. So much for bedrest!

In other news, it has been a very busy week. Basically been at uni 9-6 everyday. Monday evening I went to kickboxing. Rushed home from that to get ready to go out. Then went to Rutherfood bar with the intention of going to indie night at venue. Needless to say that didnt happen. Went to bed about 3 or 4.

Got up to uni for 9 again on tuesday. Had a full day with only an hour gap between 2-3. (Not too keen on my tuesdays!) Then had two dance classes. Probably got home about 10, where I proceeded to do work until the early hours of the morning.

Wednesday was pretty much also a full day, 9 o clock start. Had Guides in the evening - we went over to the woods. My housemate gave me a lift so that I didnt have to spend the usual hour and a half travelling. And I also got dinner made for me. Which was a good thing because I dont get time to eat these days. After Guides rushed home to go to venue. had a good evening, until I got PUNCHED in the RIBS. Still in pain now. I did not even do anything to this girl. I should have phoned the police and had her done for assault. Intoxication would be no defence, and there were enough witnesses to show I didnt even provoke her. Went to bed, still in pain about 4.30.

Thursday, Up at 7. had to go to town to buy a card, then spent the rest of the day doing work. Tried to get an early night, but George (person who used to live in my house) turned up, and Beth and James got excited, bless them! Too exhausted to make it to Kickboxing which annoyed me greatly.

Friday was also a very busy day. Got taking to Stelling Minnis to see where I am taking my Guides for Pack Holiday. I was very organised I drew maps and everything. Marked down the number of sockets/smoke alarms/fire extinguishers. Then went back to Alisons house to fill out forms. Got in mid afternoon - having been out doing all this since 10, where I proceeded to do yet more work. Went to Woodies in the evening, and ended up in Venue. It was a decidedly crap night, and I just wanted to come home for cuddles.

Probably went to bed about 3.30, got up at 6.30 to do some work. Felt ill. Was ill. Am ill. Am currently sitting here working in between random stages of faintness and illness. Everyone else is out - oh and Alex got here and 7 this morning. Spoke to her briefly, and if im feeling any better later, may do something this evening briefly with everyone as George and Alex are only here for weekend.

Hope to be better for work tomorrow. In the meantime....back to work.

Hayley
claire1984
Why is nothing going right?

I brought a book online only to find out that its no longer in print and so they had to refund me the money.

I purchased an external hard drive (320GB) and thats not come through yet because there has been trouble with something or other!

Grrr.

On another note, I purchases some boxing gloves, and bandages etc. whoohoo!

Got my laptop serviced, and apparently I need to update everything. Yeah right! I know I needed more memory - hence the external hard drive. As far as a graphics card, well I dont really play games so that doesnt matter. I think they were just trying to make me spend more money in the shop.

Not upto anything tonight. We cant be asked to do anything, so are going to watch both the Anchorman films, whilst playing drinking games, (and obviously drinking!), and probably just general messing round.....before collapsing unconscious into bed. Separate ones of course! I dont think the 5 of us will fit in one.

If that doesnt go to plan then number 2 are having a party! And we may go GateCrash. In a weird sort of way - they invited us, but we dont know them!!

Anywho - drinkage.....

WHOO!! Party tonight
Hayley
claire1984
Party tonight! Im really looking forward to it, but am so nervous at the same time. What if everything goes wrong?

Ah never mind. Currently hanging out on campus to meet some people from back home in Essex. I only really have time to have a drink with them because I have to get ready for the party, but it will be good to see them for a short time. Its a shame they cant actually come to the party because they have to be elsewhere.

I went to Kickboxing last night. I havent had as much fun in ages. Its a really good way to let built up frustrations out thats for sure. I will be doing that again. Hmm, I just need someone to try my moves out on now. Its all part of my Plan to shape up. Note the capital P on that. Its just like our Project at college - that actually worked for a while though. I wonder if anyone else can remember what I am referring to.

Also just bumped into Chris from school - which was interesting. I havent actually spoken to him in the two years he has been here - and now we spoke for the second time in a week. It was good though, I met a friend of his, and we discussed random things from the past. I learnt several things that actually shocked me, but hey. Not everyone is as they seem perhaps. I know for sure I have had first hand experience of that.

Its a shame. I get fed up of people making promises they clearly have no intention of keeping. Everytime though I fall for it. Im a very silly person I feel. I also have a headache which is a bad thing because I want to enjoy tonight. Am slightly worried about how my behaviour tonight may affect first day at work tomorrow. Its my 21st party - I should drink, but on the other hand I dont want to create a bad impression. And its a while since I managed a 9 hour shift whilst hungover!!

AHh im staring at my phone willing it to ring. if these people dont get in touch soon I wont have time to see them let alone say hi!

I yoinked this
Hayley
claire1984
Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

Hayley
claire1984
INTERNET AT HOME!!!!

Hayley
claire1984
I am now 21....I have actually been for two weeks now, I just have not updated since. I've been having too much fun. And its not over yet. Our party is this friday night - it can not be the saturday because I am working until 11. Anyway, our party at home was really good (I think so anyway!). Everybody was really merry etc - no one throwing up through bottomless boxes like the last one. Not mentioning any names of course.

It all seems so long ago now. Since being back in Canterbury I have been out every night, and completely busy in the days too. I think its quite good for me actually. Although I already have a lot of work building up. It should be ok, as long as I take a long enough break to get some sleep and do some work. Obviously the sleeping is more tempting - but the work has to be done so I dont overload myself already.

Tonight I am going to some dance class at the gym, and then onto ballroom dancing. Apparently they have the professionals in or something. Im honestly not sure if I am going to have the time to keep up with all this once term really starts. Its not fair! Usually my law reading week is the same as my psychology reading week. I normally try to complete the work and have a sort of free week. However - that is not to be. The law reading week is in a completely different week to Psychology.

On another note, I want the internet! We were supposed to get it on friday night but is has not come yet. Its not fair. Yep, I just feel like moaning. Ahh weell. Got a lecture at 5. Ive just enjoyed a 2 hour break (sort of) having been on the go since 9. Well I woke up at 7.30 after going to bed about 2.30. We watched a rather amusing film, and tonight I think we are watching I know what you did last summer. Im not getting home until 11 so lets hope Im not too tired.

Anyway, I waffling. Sorry!

Hayley
claire1984
So, Reading next weekend. Pack Holiday after that. Party after that. Back to Canters to work for a week.

Then my birthday!

So, to cut a long story short....Lots of organising to be done, and not enough time.

Hello
Hayley
claire1984
I thought that I would update this thing because I am currently trying to waste some time, and can not think of anything else to do.

I have quite a lot of things going on at the moment, with various people. Not got any plans for this afternoon as such, but I need to sort out some paper work, and do some washing and ironing etc, so it won't really be a relaxing afternoon. Tomorrow we have been invited out for dinner - something I am looking forward to. Just need to find the time to pop to Sainsbury's to buy some wine.

Last week, I appeared to do a lot. It didnt necessarily feel like I did a lot but looking back i think I did. (What?!) My brother had a car accident on saturday night, so that made the weekend weird. Work made me go back to the doctors to try and get my foot sorted, otherwise they would sack me. Got an xray appointment booked, and we can go from there. In the meantime, Im on really strong painkillers, to stop me limping and hopefully to stop work from sending me home!

Then I realised I should probably think about brownie pack holiday, and sorting bits out for that. Then I realised we need to plan two 21st birthday parties, and sort all that out and time off work. its a never ending mission of organising and managing finances.

Managed to see Charlie and the Chocolate factoy on Monday evening, which was nice because I also got taken out for lunch/dinner. Anyway, no one is interested in me, so Im guna let you all get back on.

Shocking
Hayley
claire1984
I thought I would update this thing. For no apparent reason other than I am trying to kill some time. Finished work an hour earlier than expected, and am currently waiting for Steven. Am looking forward to going home and doing nothing, but that probably will not happen. Need to go shopping.

I moved house for anybody that is interested. If you want my new address, then just drop me a line. Also have a new mobile number but I think I gave that to most people. Went out last night with one of my new housemates and had a good evening.

Work is ok at the moment, although I am currently being stalked by an individual who wants me to dump my boyfriend. its actually not that bad. Amusing though,

Hayley
claire1984
I need to sleep but I can't.

Hayley
claire1984
Im still just drifting.

It doesnt help with having nothing to do. I had a job interview today and had to be all smiley and false. I really wasnt in the mood.

I even half-watched Balamory this morning because it was something Grandma used to do towards the end. Its odd, even though I didnt see her much, little things keep reminding me of her. Like my oldest teddy bear and the nose she sewed on it.

I dont think it has sunk in yet. Just when I think it has - I almost burst into tears in Canterbury high street, something happens and I find that it hasnt. I sort of wish that I was at home, but I know that it would be weird. Its not as if I could really do much, and Mum and I would probably get fed up of each other after a while!

I was thinking about going to Mungos on friday this week, but Im not sure. The last time I went when I was all enjoying myself ish, my parents spent the evening at the hospital. I feel guilty thinking about it, but at the same time I wasnt to know.

I just wish I would stop drifitng.

Hayley
claire1984
My exams are over. They were over on Monday, but I have not celebrated. I probably will not.

My parents met me from my exam, and I thought it was to visit me now that my exams were over, and because they knew I was feeling down and a bit homesick over the last week - due to exams. Instead they told me that my Grandma had passed away.

She had been in hospital since Christmas, and had gone into a nursing home on Thursday. It turns out the shock, or the thought of never going home gave her a broken heart. She passed away on Friday night. At least she is with my Granddad now.

I have been at home for a couple of days, but have to come back to Canterbury for a job induction. We do not yet know when the funeral is yet for reasons Id rather not say, but I will be returning home for that.

Sorry to everyone who I havent or will not have a chance to see before term ends. Hope you have a good summer.

Hayley
claire1984
Just about to leave for last exam.

Will be glad to get it out the way!

Then I can concentrate on everything else in life.

I realised the other day that I have been revising for over 2 months solidly. I guess thats what you get for doing my course, and having your exams begin in the middle of April and end at the end of May.

Not that they have all been spaced out - before anyone gets any ideas I had three in a row last week.

I need a break. I have a headache already.

After 3 hours and 4 essays, I think i will be ready for my bed later on.

Noodles
claire1984
Two and a half years today!!

We went to Broadstairs and played on the amusements (where i got my ass whooped at air hockey!). Then we ended up in Ramsgate, dont know how. We stayed there sometime doing random things, dont know what. Got back to Canterbury and went to the cinema to see Kingdom Of Heaven because there was nothing else on. BUT we did book Star Wars tickets for Thursday.

Then went to Pizza hut and ate too much.

All in all had a fantastic day.

Now going to bed to watch Boston Legal.

Im a very happy bunny.

Hayley
claire1984
Does anyone know anything about cognitive psychology?

As in, enough information to teach me so that I actually get a good mark in this exam.

Hayley
claire1984
Criminal law exam today.

I need some ideas for fundraising.

I *may* need to raise £600 by July.

I definitely need to raise £350 by next summer.

Has anyone got any ideas for me? We are fundraising as a unit but I thought i could do some for myself.

Hayley
claire1984
Havent updated in a while, so I thought I would let everyone know that I am doing ok. Not been up to much. Im supposed to be revising, and I guess somewhere in the middle of all this I am doing so. I have been so tired lately though, and as a result my brain has gone into overload, but not in a nice way at all.

I have been having some pretty nasty dreams, that in turn get me really worried when I wake up. Some of them are so real I have to question people I thought were there to see whether something did happen. I need to sort out some sort of sleep pattern, but that is not working when my alarms don't go off!! I guess I just have a lot on my mind at the moment - although if you asked me exactly what....I really couldn't say.

Its really random. I guess I'm just going through one of those phases that everyone else on LJ seems to go through. As for blame? Well, im laying it on the exams amongst one other thing. But thats a whole nother story!

Hayley
claire1984
Im off to School Disco with Eavann.

And I have not been drinking solidly since 7.

Hayley
claire1984
Went to Docs and had a chest x ray. Am still waiting for results.

He says that my breathinng could be hyperventilating, but that the cough would not fit into that. The cough would fit into asthma, but Im having trouble inhaling not exhaling. At least I dont havbe to take the steroid inhaler again though.

Hayley
claire1984
Something bad has been going on.

Those of you that care will have noticed that I have had a really bad cough for the last few months. I went to the doctors, he gave me an inhaler and said my asthma had come back.

I was really ill on friday, but went to work and stuffs as normal.

Woke up saturday and I could not breathe. I spent the day doing nothing, I had to ring in sick to work etc. It was two much effort to get dressed and I couldn't do anything. I spent the day sitting down doing nothing, and I have not been able to catch my breath. I feel like I am running the marathon.

I don't like it, but the more I panic the harder it is to breathe. My inhaler does not work - ergo its not my asthma come back. I would like to be able to breathe again please.

Hayley
claire1984
I was told yesterday I have flabby arms. I was not impressed, but hopefully its the boost I need into helping me lose weight. I was going to go swimming whilst at home, but the local one has been shut, so that shall resume when I return to Canterbury next week.

I have got so much chocolate - some left over from christmas still because I gave it up for lent. Im so stupid in that respect. Oh well, I have enough to last to next christmas.

I wish people would get back to me. I was planning on going out tonight but none of the lads are getting back to me. Grrr.

Hayley
claire1984
Well, I had a great weekend in London! Even my first day back at work was not that bad.

After work we rushed into London where we met up with Emma, before dropping our stuff off before going to Wetherspoons in Angel. We drank somewhat before the others all turned up, and we met Sara's cousin, and then we drank some more before moving onto the afterschool club place. Where we drank yet more, and danced some.

An entirely random guy started chatted to me, and his mate to Eavann. We got talking and found out we were both from Essex - the same sort of area. It turned out he knew someone I worked with and someone who I work with now! He stopped chatting me up soon enough. Then one of his friends came over and it was a couple of people that we knew from college - Hayley and Ben! It was quite random. We were in this back street pub, and it was like we knew half the club! (ok, exaggeration!) We chatted for a bit but they had to leave to catch the train all the way back to Essex. But not before my friend had pulled one of them of course..hehe.

Then we just carried on dancing, my friend pulling a few more people, before we went and found the others upstairs. I was knackered, having been up since 6.30 and on my feet all day. Before we knew it, it was time to leave so we waited for the bus back to Emma's.

Some weird guy at the bus stop kept grabbing my arm! We were all sitting down. I was sitting next to Steve, and we weren't being overly couply because we didnt want make Emma feel like a gooseberry. Anyway this guy obviously thought that I wasn't with Steve, and thought he would move in. He kept grabbing and snatching at me, so we all had to swop seats and he had the right arse. I wouldnt mind, but when I turned around to ask him what the hell he wanted, he pretended he wasn't doing anything!

We collapsed into bed around 4.30, and got up the next day to buy our Reading tickets and go to Camden. Only when we got to the Jazz cafe it turned out we needed a utility bill to purchase them. Not impressed, as nowhere does it tell us that. We figured it would be cheaper to get them in London seeing as we were there. Anyway we wandered around Camden and had breakfast about 3.00 in the afternoon in a little cafe place. it was a good day. Apart from the bit where I twisted my ankle quite badly, and spent most of the day limping!

Am currently doing some revision. Will need to get ready for work soon.

Hayley
claire1984
Help me!

I have my criminal law assessment this afternoon, and I don't know anything.

Hayley
claire1984
I got up too late to go to my computing lecture.

I am so pissed off with myself.

Hayley
claire1984
How hard is it to find ice cream on campus without chocolate in it???

Im going to update for no reason whatsoever
Noodles
claire1984
I feel really tired. I haven't really been doing much lately, except trying to prepare really hard for both of thess timed assessments. Im so worried about them its almost like I can not stimulate myself to concentrate on any other work!

I am fed up of this snow now. It was fun at first, now it just gets in the way. I wouldn't mind if everything was cancelled, but life goes on and the snow just gets in the way. For example; The airport is shut, and at this rate my friend might not get back in time for her boyfriend's birthday tomorrow. Guides was cancelled again. We haven't even been back since half term yet. Soon we will be breaking up for Easter and we won't have done anything we were supposed to.

I just hope that the postal service isn't too behind due to the weather conditions. I want my mum's card to get there on time. In other news I brought and watched Bridget Jones Diary 2 yesterday. I know I don't really have the money but I have been feeling down lately, and needed to cheer myself up. My Grandma is still in hospital, and she has been since Christmas. Im not getting any better - this damned cough is not leaving me, and today im going hot and cold.

See, I don't know why i update this thing. I never have anything interesting to say, and what I do say is stuff that nobody wants to know. Never mind, Im falling asleep. What is wrong with me?? Im going to try and concentrate on revising for these timed assessments, and I will not be distracted by the book i am currently reading.

Hayley
claire1984
I got told I have perfect boobs by another girl.

That boosted my self esteem!

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